Last night I had a nightmare that I was replaced. I mean, it was me - looked just like me and everything, but it wasn't ME. My replacement fooled everyone. NOBODY could tell the difference, not even my mom and dad! She was convincing. She knew everything that I know. But she was just too perfect! She didn't even have any scars, as if she had never even lived before. It was just like the movie Invasion of the Body Snatchers. That dream gave me a very uneasy feeling and I haven't been able to shake it all day. **shudders**
It seems like these past few months have passed by so quickly. I guess it's because I kept pretty busy during the holiday season. I spent Thanksgiving, Christmas, Kwanzaa, New Years, MLK Day, etc. with my family. For Valentine's day, I wanted to hang out with my friends (especially one friend in particular). I went to a party for Valentine's Day and I had a great time! Bob gave me a big hug. I had a good good night (I had a feeling that I would).
Skipper told Kiara that I cried when I found out that Bob was going to the dance with Hadley, and Kiara told Sharpay, and Sharpay told Nakia, and so on and so on.
Briana Joy told Janet that I had been waiting on Bob to ask me to the dance, and Janet told Mira, and Mira told Linh, and so on, and so on.
Along the way, some girls added their own speculation and opinions, and all of that got retold as fact.So by the time the story got back to Bob, it only slightly resembled the truth.
Bob told me that we need to talk and he asked me to meet him in the library and I agreed.I got there before he did and as soon as he arrived I asked him why he was going to the dance with Hadley and why hadn’t he asked me.He had this really puzzled look on his face and he said “I didn’t ask you because I thought that you were going to the dance with someone else.”I asked “Who told you that?” and he said “Mikey told me that weeks ago.Now I’m hearing something different from everyone else…”.
So I told Bob everything, about how I had lied to Mikey, just everything.I asked him if he could cancel with Hadley and go to the dance with me.He said “No, of course not!I’ve given her my word.I wouldn’t do that to her or to anyone else.”Bob told me “You should have just told Mikey the truth."
My mom always tells me that lies have consequences. She's right. :(
Today we had a substitute teacher. We were supposed to review Chapter 7 but Mikey told the substitute that Mr. Smith always lets us read on our own and talk about the chapter amongst ourselves on review day (which is not true). The substitute believed Mikey, so we basically talked and played around all during class. Mikey misbehaved a little.
Kana and Briana Joy have been telling me that I need to ask Bob to the dance. They say maybe he's too shy to ask me. I don't know, he wasn't too shy to write me that note a while back. They say I need to go ahead and ask because the dance is a week from Friday! I didn't want to ask him; I felt that he should be the one to ask me. Kana kept leaning back and whispering "Ask him! Ask him!" So I decided to just drop a few hints to Bob. I said "Sooooooo, the big Homecoming Dance is next week..." and he said "Yep." I said "You know, girls have a lot to do to prepare for a dance like this, so they really need to make plans in advance..." and he said "I imagine so." And he turned around and started reading his book. I don't understand him!
I saw Mikey coming my way and I had this feeling of dread because I just knew that he was coming to crack jokes about me. I was surprised when he stopped at Layla's desk and ignored me completely. He said "What's up Looooooooong Legged Layla!" Layla giggled and said "Mikey why do you always have to comment on my legs every time you see me?" Mikey said "I don't know. I guess because your legs are the first thing that I notice about you. And I notice because I like your legs." Then Layla let out this high pitched giggle and I felt my stomach turn. I was so ready for class to be over.
I saw Skipper in the hallway and I tried to go the other way but she started calling my name. She told me that we need to talk and asked me why I have been avoiding her. I told her that I wasn't doing it on purpose and she said "Come on! You don't even reply to the text messages that I send to you!" I tried to think of what to say. She said "Calista I thought that we were friends!" I said "I thought so too!" and she said "Well this isn't a very nice way to treat a friend!" So I told her "Okay, let's talk, but not now. We can talk for as long as we need to. I promise!" She said "Okay." As she was walking away, I told her "By the way, I've been meaning to tell you congratulations on being nominated as Homecoming Queen." She said "Thanks." and kept walking.
Saturday night, there was a big Halloween party for adults and some of them needed babysitters. So Kana, Layla, and I decided to babysit together and split the money.
Since it was Halloween, we decided to let the kids watch scary movies. The scariest one was about a big purple dinosaur who preys on young children. I will have nightmares about that one! **shudders**
After that, we gave them snacks. We let them eat some Halloween candy, cookies, soda pop, etc. It was a challenge getting them all fed, but Little Janet was a big helper to us.
The children became a bit unruly! They were running around and jumping on the furniture. Finally we got them to calm down and we gave them some activities. We drew, played games like Musical Chairs, etc.
Eventually the young ones fell asleep. Me and my friends sat around talking after that. At one point my cell phone fell out of my purse and Layla grabbed it. She pretended to talk on the phone, saying "Hello? Hello?... Okay, just a moment." Then she handed the phone to me and said "Calista, 1999 is on the phone and they want their cell phone back." Kana and Layla giggled but I didn't think it was very funny. I hope that I get a new cell phone for Christmas.
A couple of the children woke up, so Layla played a video of one of her performances at school for us all to watch. That put them right back to sleep. LOL! I saw myself in the audience!
Fall is my favorite season. I love looking at the multi-colored scenery. The beauty of the land just takes my breath away.
Today me, Kana, Briana, and Big Janet went on a nature walk. Oh yeah, I'm over what happened last weekend with them leaving me out of their plans. Last Monday they acted like nothing had ever happened, and I just went along. I haven't spoken to Skipper much. I just don't know what to say.
I had so much fun with my friends today. I'm just glad that things seem to be back to normal between all of us. My mom says that whenever there's conflict, that people need to talk things out. She says that communication is key. Maybe that's not always true. Maybe if people just hang out and look at the beauty of nature, they will realize that their problems are not so important after all.
I got separated from the rest of the girls for a while and I was just enjoying myself, looking at my surroundings when I heard "Calista! Calista!" I looked up and it was Mikey. I braced myself for his teasing. He said "You know the homecoming dance is less than 3 weeks away right?" I said "Yes I know." He said "I was wondering if we could go to the dance...together." I said "Ha ha Mikey, very funny." He said "I'm serious." And I looked at him and I saw that he really was serious! I was stunned! I tried to talk and my words came out in a jumble. "I...welll it's, you see..I just, I can't go with you." He said "Why not?" and I said "I'm already going...with someone else." I couldn't believe it when I heard that lie come out of my mouth. Well it's not really a lie, I do WANT to go with someone else, he just hasn't asked me yet. And in spite of everything, I just really didn't want to hurt Mikey's feelings.
Mikey said "Ok, that's cool. I didn't really want to go with you ANYWAY!"
Saturday night I texted Kana to see what she was up to. We (me, Kana and Briana Joy) normally hang out on the weekends. So she texted me back saying "can't talk, movie starting, turning phone off". So then I sent a text message to Briana Joy and she did not reply. I even sent a text to Janet (we call her Big Janet or BJ, because we have 2 Janets). No one answered. I figured that they had all gone to the movies together without telling me anything about it, and I was pretty upset.
The next day I went over Kana's house and they were all there - they had spent the night! I asked why they had made plans without including me and Kana said "We figured you would be busy hanging out with your new BFF Skipper." What?! I was shocked. I told them that they did not have to be upset that I had made a new friend. They told me that's not what upset them. They said that it upset them that I had gone to a slumber party that they were not invited to. I told them that it was a last minute thing that Skipper threw together and they told me no, she had planned it for at least a week! They said that the only reason Skipper even invited me is that Hadley and Isla couldn't go.
Ok, all of this is news to me. I'll have to ask Skipper about this at school. Meanwhile, my feelings are really hurt. I do NOT want to have to choose between my friends. :(
The girls here tend to hang out in cliques. For the most part, the older girls hang out together and they act like the younger girls do not exist. Sometimes, some of the girls are really mean to other girls that are not in their particular group of friends. I'm okay with most of the girls, except for the twins Hadley and Isla. I don't like them. They walk around like they think that they're royalty or something. Plus I heard that one of them made fun of Briana Joy and made her cry, and I still get very angry inside when I think about that.
The boys don't really seem to have the same problems that we girls do. I mean, sure some of them get into it sometimes, but they seem to get over it quickly. You'll see two of them scuffling one day, and then the next day they're on the basketball courts playing together.
Me and Skipper have been hanging out a lot more lately. I gave her my new cell number and she texts me all the time. She's only a little bit older than me and we get along really well. But she seems to get along with everyone. The only problem is that she only wants to hang out with me, and not my other friends. She says that I'm the mature one. I don't want to hang around her friend either (at least not Hadley and Isla). But I like hanging out with Skipper. She's pretty cool.
Today I gave Bob a note that said “Meet me at the playhouse after school”. The playhouse is still under construction so I figured we would have a little privacy there. So I went there after school and Bob was not there. I was so nervous and my heart was beating fast and I wondered if he would show up. After a while he showed up! I saw that he had changed clothes and I wished that I had changed clothes too.
We talked for a while – maybe 30 minutes or more. He told me that I look so pretty with and without my glasses. <3>
The Homecoming dance is in 6 weeks. I think that he will ask me to go with him. I hope that he asks me! This will be my first formal dance. I wonder if my parents will let me go with Bob?????? He needs to ask me soon so that I have time to pick out the perfect dress!
Today I saw Bob in his uniform for the first time. Now I'm beginning to understand what my aunt means when she says that there's just something about a man in uniform. **giggle** I think he kinda likes me in my uniform too. :-))))))))))
